Sarah Cate is now 2.5 years old......which means, we have been trying to give her a living sibling for 2 years....with no success. I haven't blogged in a while, as I have been a little down. Not like suicidal or anything but just down.
I never wanted to have an only child....I love my siblings and my cousins and always wanted that for my children....but alas I guess its not meant to be for Sarah Cate. And when I think of how she has a sibling in heaven who would be 5 in the fall and going to kindergarden, well that is another road of sadness that has hit me out of nowhere. Yes the grief of losing a baby has no end. Who am I kidding though....I am 44 years old, not exactly at the peak of my childbearing years.
I also miss my dad so much. Reminders of him are everywhere. Dad I love you.
Oh yes, and my mom died on Mothers' Day in 1985...so this weekend is not exactly happy for me, just a sad reminder.....even 24 years later.
So, that is where I am lately.......... just not in the mood to blog.
But thinks have been looking up, so stay tuned.
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